suffocate me

i fall amongst a bed of clouds and say to them: 

“suffocate me, then bring my life back;

back to my eyes and the stars in my chest.

get rid of the bandage that wraps my heart

and let it love fully again.” 

because i miss myself when the mourning dove called my name in dewey grass at 7:30 am.

the few times i still hear them,

their hallow song does not fail to cause collapse.

gently, i weep,

begging these clouds of innocence

to recognize me as i am now,

with all the blood, guts, and glory 

that decorate what once was;

i beg of you

to fall with me once more